carolecarrick

I am an eclectic contradiction. A shy yet open woman. A free spirit following the rules. A homebody with wanderlust. A realist who believes in all things magical. A down to earth avid dreamer. A town-born country girl. A child with an old soul. .................................Anon. A little something about myself...for old friends and new ones too. I'm married to the most amazing man called Clive and I will be eternally grateful for having him by my side through all we have been through and so lucky that I met him when I was only 15 and he was 18. We have built a life together and gone through some very tough times that have made us love each other even more and strengthened our relationship. I have a wonderful caring family especially my parents Alan and Madeline and my brother Alan and his lovely family. I have friends who mean the world to me even though I don't see them very often...they are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I live my life these days mainly through the internet, Facebook has opened a whole new world to me and I have made some friends that I truly cherish, reconnected with friends that I am loving having back in my life and also keeping in touch with old friends and family. Just by reading what they are up to I feel part of their lives again. For the past 15 plus years I have been coping with a chronic illness called M.E. It's not so widely understood...it even confuses me...and it affects every part of my life, bringing so many limitations to my life that I have now learned to take each day as it comes and live for the moment. I am blessed that I am a creative person. Nothing I make is particularly wonderful but I love the excitement of making something from nothing...recycling old fabrics or creating something from wire that turns out beautiful (to me) is one of my favourite pastimes. I am a friendly caring type of person and I always try to stay true to my Geordie roots. I live in Scotland but I am proud to be English through and through and am lucky to have a lovely home and a garden that I adore working in when I am well enough. I adore animals and over the years we have had 13 cats, 3 dogs,5 goats,numerous chickens, cockerels, fish and visiting hedgehogs, house martins and pipistrelle bats. I love movies, music and reading and can quite happily while away many hours just content in my own little world reading poetry or science fiction novels. My favourite place to be is right by my husbands side...wherever he is I am happy! I love the sea, I am originally from a coastal town so whenever I am feeling low I head for the seaside, which thankfully is only 20 minutes away. I am not particularly religious although I do believe there is some higher power. I think my morals are my religion and for now that is enough. If I have any sense of what a heaven is like it'll be like looking into the eyes of the man I love :) I'm not a great talker but I am a good listener. I always try to help people whenever I can and I can always say I did try. I have been hurt in friendship by a person I loved like a sister.She was overcome by alcoholism and sadly became a different person because of it. She was the most adorable, kind and funny friend anyone could wish for but alcohol slowly stripped that all away and left a shell of her former self, a paranoid, hate filled self distructive shell. We broke our friendship because of how her abusive behaviour was affecting my health & also I wasn't good for her, I was always forgiving her when she really needed someone stronger to stand up to her appalling behaviour. Only six months later she was dead. I have an overwhelming hatred for alcohol now...it cost me my best friend! I can though see that it brings pleasure to many and I would not ever try to take that away from them...but it plays no part in my life now. This has not stopped me from loving. Life must go on and new friendships and old have even greater meaning to me now. I have learned from that experience though. I have learned that people must want to help themselves before anyone can help them. I hope all my friends know I am here for them and that I will move heaven and earth to be the best friend I can be. I think I am a positive person and I am happiest when in the company of people who can express themselves with humour. I've lived by the funniest man alive for almost thirty years so it had to rub off on me. When I am cured of M.E. I am going to make up for all these years where I have missed out on the people I love. I am never going to say no to anything and I am going to live my life to it's fullest again. I suppose there is lots more I could say but that is the basics about me. Carole.x